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Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
-Current Residence: The World Wide Web
-Operating System: Laptop
-DeviantArt Occupation: Writer, editor, artist, and commissioner.
-Favorite cartoon character: Hououin Kyouma/Rintarou Okabe ('Stein's Gate')
-Personal Quote: "If everything were easy, there would be no satisfaction."
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(*Warning: Random ranting ahead.*)

Well, it looks like my talking big about making a dent in my story projects was all just hot air. I've barely made any progress on anything this last month, aside from some TG War projects(which are likely to be dis-continued soon on account of suddenly not having fun...) and some small commission projects(which I'm pretty sure I swore I was not gonna get into as long as my car repair debts still needed to be payed). This month has been an outright mess in my book... To think that loosing the privilege of driving myself to work... *Sighs* I've been getting up almost every morning at 6 or 7 to ride with my mother, who's been my only means of transport since my car tanked, hang out until 1pm to start my shift, working until 10pm, getting home to fall asleep around 12, and then repeating that cycle five days a week for the past 4 weeks. Is this what the average grownup is expected to do, or is this the curse of being a member of the poor, working-class of over-taxed American citizens?

All of this would be fine if I was the one choosing it for myself, driving with my own vehicle, getting enough food and rest, allowing my creative juices to max out when I want them to, and making enough bank to pay my bills and other expenses, but instead, I feel drained and unable to live my life, all because my car fell into disrepair and my only affordable mechanic is a poor newly-wed who works a second, full-time job... 

(*End of rant*)

Maybe I'm just cranky from lack of sleep and the general lack of nice weather here, but I just feel ashamed when I can't craft my stories, even when I have plenty of time before work to write them. All I have to show for my on-going story chapters since last month's journal entry are somewhat detailed outlines, but, unless I feel the buzz to write out the first drafts, they tend to collect digital dust since it seems much easier to clean up a draft that I felt primed and ready to write than one I've felt less than ready to write...

I've considered starting another story, one that I'm sure would kick-start my creative juices again, but with so many on-going stories on my list already, and with you mostly patient people waiting for the next piece, I'm not sure if that's such a good idea... This thought concerning what you guys think sounds kinda silly to me since I've almost always done whatever I feel like doing, what I love doing, at the given time, and the results have almost always been good because I did it that way... 

I don't know what this journal entry is for. Getting my thoughts out? Hoping for some feedback? Words of encouragement? Either way, my mechanic believes that my car should be ready to roll by this upcoming Monday, so perhaps things will improve once I can run about as I please again. I wanted to get some college errands done that could spawn another 2-3 years of education in another state, wanting to study and learn far-eastern languages like Japanese and Mandarin-Chinese and become an interpreter, right before my car quit on me. It hurts when you realize that you cannot forge your own destiny, not because you're lazy, but because something you couldn't prepare for well enough happens. It's especially painful if you have people around you, like I do, that keep saying things like, "Perhaps you should've saved up some more money." What money?! I'm a poor country boy! 

I suppose I should consider myself lucky since my car didn't break down in the middle of the road or, god forbid, gotten me into my first automobile collision... All the same, I doubt I'll have much to post until I'm behind the wheel of my own car again. Lexy, that's her name, has always made me feel better on those "off" days, especially when she treats me to a buffalo chicken wrap, so I hope that and her timely return is in my stars. :) 
  • Mood: Regretful
  • Listening to: Pandora
  • Reading: My journal
  • Watching: High School DxD New
  • Playing: Dead Space 2
  • Eating: Something
  • Drinking: Water

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If I recall correctly, I've mentioned rebooting my on-going story with the initials "D.T.A.", but, considering it's been a while, I'd like to give my viewers a say in what comes after my current story projects: Which story/chapter takes your fancy? 

48%
26 deviants said "Don't Touch Anything" Chapter 1 (Rebooted)
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15 deviants said "The Legend of Zelda: The Moon Pearl's Curse" Chapter 11
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8 deviants said "16 Again in Azabu-Juuban" Chapter 1 (It's a working title, so feel free to comment
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5 deviants said "DOA C.S: Retribution" Chapter 1 (Which will be significantly better than the first, revolving around the events of DOA 4)

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Jayronzski Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist
thanks for all the faves =)
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Wulfgear Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2015
Thanks for faving Swap :D
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GoodKittyNyanchan Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
:iconrikkavplz: Thankies for the fave-nya.  It's nyice to see that there are other group members interested in my OC's. :heart: :iconazu-nyanplz:
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Macao52 Featured By Owner Edited Jul 19, 2015  Student Writer
Thanks for the fave!
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NineTailWyndfox Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2015  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave.
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